SWT..-.-"

wah..wat a day men..haiz..get me so rush for the 1st time..even last time doenst happen this situation before..and is just a small group will get to clash up the title comparing to others group..really swt man..!!Only 4 group and 4 group also clash together..we make the lecturer got speechless..and i,myself also alil 'za dou'..then,after that have to decide which group need to change title..and in between they have arguement wid another group..and i got so piss with it..!!Is not the time to argue any more..the due date is 2molo..we need to done it by today itself..!!Really kids man..seem no brain to think..and the attitude just like a small kid..did not think b4 taking action..thank god im only see them dis sem..well..sorry ro make my frenz worry about..and thanks for the concern..so nice..love n appreciate them so much..givin me support..!!Then,wish my love will get to recover soon..sorry cant get to take k u..love ya..muakz=)

gettin better after all

Guess so after a talk wid dear..things going better as well as im feelin better too..i glad of his agreement of understanding my situition and at the same time support wid my decision..!!A month plus is not long but is not consider short..but just a period of time that both of us not meetin each other..i wish during the time i can really concentrate wid what i need to do and do the best to get in degree..!!Dad has been mumbling everytime when there's a time we're together..thou kinda can stand his mumble but all just causes due to me..in order to avoid all these..that will be when im officially enter degree..then,that's the time im save of all kind of things..!!pray hard..to god,hope u can give me what i can..as long i enter degree..will promise hard to study well..pls...

words i wanna say

This days due to have prob wid family..feel so stress up,especially in studies..i failed them once..n now,the trust in between like gone adi..at the same time,me n dear also had arguement..plus past few days my mood were not that good thou..is like cant really talk to him properly..!!i tend to get piss off easily..is so not like me,argg..hate it so much..im tryin my best to control my emotion when i talk to him but when the topic come to my family..then,get to be different adi..feeling so sad..!!i know how hard he actually persuide himself to accept my request..that not to meet for a month plus..at the 1st moment i dint ever think of need to do that..till the day when dad came back from work n suddenly came to me n ask me some ques..n tell me wat had him found out n understand..at the time i feel so tension..mayb i really had things hiding behind..that's y i felt tension..!!after all..i thought it will get to cool down slowly..n i believe is goin better but till last nitez,dad came to me again n telling some weird things that i dun understand..i dunno what he heard n so on..bcoz of those words,it causes sis dint get to slp well too..n i cant get to cool down myself wid his words..i really worry,i told dear n he said since my dad sint wanna say it out then i no need to bother..ya,say is easy but he's not the 1 that listen..n im the that listen those words..really cant believe that at the moment my dad reaction is so serious..!!honestly,i have nothin to hide from dear,but just bout feeling..he dint get it..things that im worry bout..many things that i wish to do wid him..i dun wanna end coz of dis..being wid him for a time adi,is not that easy to let go..n really wan him to know,i decide not to meet not bcoz i avoidin him,yet is to show out that dun wan them to think so much,as well as wan sis to trust him that his love to me is really can go through everything..n also a time for us to prove no matter how hard it is..we can go through everything together..dis is wat im thinking..!!N i really appreciate wat u did for me,from the time v together till now u alwiz so understandin me..tq so much..wanna tell u,i love u no matter how k..!!no matter how,sis is my family n also my very bast fren to me..anyhow i need to listen to her..her words..give support me..that i can stay wid u..ya

可以吗？

从一开始，我知道这条路并不容易走。。但，到目前为止我都很努力的告诉自己要坚持下去。。我从来没想过要放弃，只是希望你可以再一次的包容一下我，容忍多一个月多。。这就够了，真的！！我也真的不想要姐出面和你谈，不想要发生到这个地步，因为家里的话，我快变得透不过气了。。也许对你来说可以不用管，但，听的人不是你，他们也不是你的什么人。。可是，对我而言是一种压力，无形的压力。我不要求多，只是要这么一个小小的要求，暂时在这一个月多里不见不谈。。！我相信时间很快过的。。是否可以允许我的要求。。你给于我的支持和其他的一切我感受得到，也很感激。。就算再多的谢谢也不能代替。。但，我只要这么一次的要求。。

how??

izit really the matter coz so many things
i really hope is not

after listen to dad talkin
i've kinda scare
i disappointed him once
im worry is bcoz of what he said
then spoil everything..again

how??what should i do..
really dunno how..

life being sux

My life recently
can describe by a word
SUX!!

I dun mind stayin at home
but can it dun be like now
lock inside the cage
i almost cant breath
get me so lifeless

Anyhow dis also not a matter
the most that make me cant stand
which my mum..
facing her is gonna make me crazy
as goes to dad

All the while i thought he will be the different
but after this happend
it show that no different..

Mayb is im the 1 that causes all this
but i bet there's alwiz a better way
rather than becomin like this
dunno what kind of nonsense
argggggg!!!

Im dyin adi..
i need fresh air to breath
i need a wide enviroment to think
i wanna live without them

By now i cant do anythin
how am i goin to stay alife
with such family..
HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

Thank god
i have sis n dear
they bring me a stay on
if not cant imagine how it gonna be!!