that saturday..

Tat day went back school for culture night..though not really good but im still quite happie..get 2 meet most of my high school friends and the ex seniors..n I saw ben,we dint talk besides sayin hi...i think dis might b a good thing..b4 tat I was worry that will anything happen..but now I know sometimes thing wont get worst if the person dun bother much…!!Guess wat..after hearin kiem liong’s story wid the gal..make me think of sound like me n sam..is like both of us havin the same situation..really dint expect that..hehe,n kiem liong thinks that is complicated but actually thing is just simple..i guess mayb da gal havin da same thinking wat am I thinking on..so..doin same thing to kiem liong..pitty kiem liong..!after the event, some of us went for yamcha at da mamak nearby..then,jia yuan send me home..overall,is feeling nice meetin up them..really hope will alwiz keep in touch..

aihz..

Haiz..dis few days been busy doin assignment..really bored of doin all assignment adi..but I got no choice..just have to face it n do it..!!by the way,dis comin sat im goin back school for their culture night..dunno ben goin o not..really been long dint see him adi..dunno he got any changes o not..feeling now is like hope 2 see him again but also dun feeling seeing him..i think is just a word 2 describe~weird..havin such a feeling make me feel bad to sam..honestly just like what I told him..is when im wid him..i enjoy being wid him n wana think of being wid him..n also hope at the moment,the time can stop goin..but when im not wid him..n wid my frez..frez is like everyting adi..n even any1..so headed..mayb I still cant get myself to manage my feeling towards him.n still not clear wid it..!!some how, what should I do to make myself feel better..and also to him..who can tell me….

That day,,

That day manman message me and told me that she feel unhappy..i ask her what happen but she dint tell me and just ask me 2 read her blog..so,I went to her blog and after reading I know what had happen…therefore I told her not be sad..coz is really not worth..and i really angry tat guy..how can u treat a gal..like dis..!!eventhough u dun like her but as u guy..cant u jz help her..since u saw her fell down and u dun hv da rite to higher ur voice(which sound like scolding) when u talk to her..i really got speechless bout dis guy..u’re such a horrible person I had ever see..mayb my fren did wrong in a way too but 4 me as a gal view..i just cant take it a guy scolded a gal..aihz..between,I really hope after that day,u get 2 think properly izit still worth 2 continue lovin him..n I beg u,pls pls pls dun get urself hurt..no matter wat..my dear,everytime I c u like that I oso feel sad..ar but cant help u..to release..!!After knowin dis from her..i realize that love is really blind..n human will lose their resional..when he o she met da love 1..mostly think that dis da good thing and I think is bad..im not sure bout guy but when a gal lost her rasional thinking..they start become emo..thinking lot of things..hehe,so dun think that y gals wana b so rasional..jz b’coz sometimes they cant even take it the emo..therefore try 2 b more understanding..it might helps alots..in a relationship..=),anyhow my own prob I also haven settle..so better dun talk so much..haha..

back:me and sim ee
front:amy,chin yee and tiffany

bored..

Yeah..finally my presentation is over..thank god..hehe,but there’s more 2 come..aihz..really dun like to do all da assignment..n presentation..dam sux..but as a coll student..i dun have the choice 2 choose..so,just forget it then..!!really miss those days in high school..is really fun n enjoyable..but human is alwiz like this..when im in high school..hope 2 go college..and b free which no need 2 follow the rules and regulation which set by the school..but now im in college,but I dun seem enjoy my life now..besides family had a little changes..other than that is still remain and if compare its worst than last time..now,hope 2 get back 2 high school but anyhow it cant happen adi..everythin have been set..and things is past cant change..haiz,anyway was just mumbling ere..ciaoz

me and man...

dis is me,cc and man..guess where r v..hehe=)

me and chia ching(we both wearin ftec shirt)

weekends..

This two days been working under ftec together wid my jimui~chiaching..basicaally our job is very easy..just gives out flies,lucky draw and if customer got any question just answer them..that’s all we need to do..im not sure isit because 1st time working for ftec and not much that need to do or working with different people..feeling better.althought sam always check out on us it dun seem nice but any how I feel much better compare to last time working wid paperline..!!By the way,after start college this da 1st time working..after so long dint work..and the moment I worked,I met alots of frez..firstly which my ex classmate aaron,after that which my senior bernard and chiateing and lastly which I saw jon and his frez...and atlast chiaching get to know who is jon...but she dint say anything besides sayin that he’s not that leng zai..n kind da ‘a’mour’ style..then,on the sunday I get to see Jeremy which I really quite long dint see him adi..really happie=)..guess wat..i think last time beside discuss bout studies..and telling her my stories..we seldom talking bout serious topic..and she talk to me bout me n him..in a way..she’s rite but yet she still dun understand the situation that im facing..so anyway…she still got her point of thinking..and thanks for her comment..but I really hope that,they can actually understand me in a way..n support me always..they mean lots 2 me besides my sis..!Then,my sis did talk 2 me bout dis too n mayb whatever she say is true..n I hope I can settle it fast..i also dun wana drag that person so long...according to that person..i get 2 know that I he dun feel really good now..i feel really bad..but just got no choice 2 be fair 2 him..really sorry...

就这样。。

一直以来，我都知道不管我在怎么叛逆在很多方面都可以得过且过但感情方面却很难。。姐也不例外，也因为这样她夹在家人和男友中间。我一直以为是他们一起都很开心，她男友都很明白她。。可是事实上有很多事我并不知道。他一直认为他都是站在街的立场想，但其实它一点也不明白我家人的想法和状况。。就因为这样有点不合。。身为妹妹的我真不希望他们这样。。也在姐的要求和我的自愿下，我msg了他，在msg的当中。。有点觉得他原来是这么的自以为事。。那时候的我真的有点生气，但还好没有和他吵架要不然就不堪设想咯。。！今天知道姐和她男友算没事了，看得出她很开心我也替她高兴。。也希望她可以天天都这样的开心不会在愁眉苦脸。但对他的印象却没那么好了。。不知道是我自己小气还是什么，可是对fwuji 哥哥来说，他在msg写的东西其实是没错。。他有他的立场。也许是我自己的问题吧，就算他已道歉。。我对他的印象到现在为止还没办法改变。。希望姐能体谅我。之后我们换了话题 ，她把话题转移到我身上。。他告诉了我很多东西，也给了我很多例子。在她身上显然看到自己好像在重复着她的动作。。让我感到害怕，我不想像她那样。。让自己变得那么辛苦，那么累。。我真的不希望我和sam会这样，所以我需要时间调整一下自己。。然后再解决我和sam的事。不然，感觉上真的会让人感到压力，同一时间却又不晓得如何释放，结果会弄得伤痕磊磊。。这种感觉一点也不好受。。我不想再有这种感觉。。不想再重复了。。

还是这样。。。

今天放学后，我到digital mall。。因为雯雯要找人谈天，身为朋友的我应该出现更何况她现在需要我这个朋友听她说话，做她的听众。。！她告诉我关于那个男子怎样对她，我觉得真的不需要对那个人那么好，也不需要那么长情。。感觉上是件很浪费时间还有青春的。虽然，现在还年轻。。但应该没必要为这种人付出这么多。。真有点替她不值，有股冲动想揍他。。伤害我的姐妹。谈着谈着，我不知不觉和雯雯谈到了我以前的事，我把我和benjamin的事告诉了她。。回想起来还蛮不错的，虽然我们并没真正的在一起。但至少我们拥有那个过程，可算是甜蜜吧！=）除此以外，我和雯雯还谈了蛮多事情。。还有谈到我和sam和他，其实我真的有点搞不懂自己想要些什么。。头脑想的东西好像和心里想的都不一样似的。。说真的，我想我真的把他放下了。。但今天他的名字突然间在我的脑海里出现。。让我恍然记得有这么一个人。。我曾经喜欢过，而每天期待着他的简讯。我想他也一样，应该已忘了我这个人的存在吧。。其实我是知道的，有很多事已经不可能发生。。过去就是过去不可能回头。。隔了这么久，却好像还对他又种点念念不忘的感觉，口说忘了，但那种思念好像慢慢地回来似的。。！我不想这样，更不喜欢这样。。一点都不好受。。真的很气自己啊。至于sam，我对他的感觉是一点一滴的累积。。而他的努力真的感动到我。。但，就是缺乏一样东西。。却又说不出是什么。。真是矛盾。也许，是我自己想太多而搞乱了我对他们俩的感情吧。。我想我该放轻松一下好让自己没那么压力。。同一时间也希望可以把我所有的问题解决。到时候应该会好很多。。=）