a hard time week

These whole week had been a hard week for me..due cant get up 2 degree,had disappointed my parents as well as my sis..!!I know everytime after the things happen feel only feel rgret is been useless most of the time..but i dunno how only i can get myself change to be better person..change those bad attitude..!!dad said is alwiz right,y cant i get enough reparation b4 we going to face the fact o problem..now,the only things i can do is attend the classes n get myslef study more hard..in order to do more preparation for the upcoming final..!!today mum back hometown wid aunt..i only get to release abit no need to face her..eventhou she dint stress out that my studies should be how n how..but as her daughter,anyhow still get to know wats she thinking..in a way,i feel stress..althought its seem a little hope she wan it from me n i cant get to do it.for her..a simply thing n i make it like very difficult!!To them,is my fault not being hardworking n put efford in my studies..to sis,she thinks tat bcoz of dear..he dint make me to be a better person..i was thinking tat izit really bcoz of him..n really get me nearly let go..eventhou just mention for few months..but after dear keep telling me not to let go..n i know it also hard for me to do that..many things that happen..the only things is to face it..n not keep avoiding the prob..n also when so hard for u to get the things u also need to hold it on wid the own decision n not bcoz of other things then n change ur mind so easily..!!After the whole week,seem get to grow up a little,think what i actaully needs,wants n have to do..all my decision not only for me but also ppl around me..just jope i wont effect them much..if can not even a little thou..!!i dun wanna feel any more heart pain..dun wanna hurt any 1..especially my family n also my beloved 1..through out the week..he gives me lots of support n accompany me all the time..i can feel he's with me no matter where am i..feel the warm i need when the whole family in a war wid u..thank you so much..!!when i need u,u show up to me..n give a a big hugz..i know things is past..but just to apologize again that hurt u..sorry,n i love u..really love u alot..ya,hugz..guess so everything will back to okay soon..=)

等待

等待

一种无奈的感觉

一点也不好受

让我坐立不安

有点无助

不晓得

如何能把它完全释放出来

很压抑

虽然

已经到了那天的到来

但

仍然相差五六个小时

无能为力

只能默默地继续等待

这个时候得我

应该入眠

以等待明天的揭晓

无可奈何

心情非常紧张

根本无法入眠

真得快变疯狂了

救命啊。。

真得很讨厌这种等待

不管任何事情

只要等待的

那个过程都会让人透不过气

可恶！！

什么都做不到的我

只能求上苍，保佑我

一切可以顺顺利利

摆脱；拜托

可以吗？

as usual

Dear sick adi..everytime when he needs me,cant get to be by his side..feel so sad..now,i just wish he get to recover fast..dun wanna see him suffer..!!Anythin will support him..most of the time when i need him,the timing just so right he will be by my side and take care of me..i wish i can now be with him..take care of him but just cant..haiz,must be strong enough..so can fully support him..=)..!!Between that day heard from chin yee that result most probably will be out on this coming friday..my heart never feel normal ever i heard that news..gosh,still got about 2 more days from now..really really pray hard that result wont be that bad though..besides nothing i can do just like what dear told me..exam period is over,anythin that i could do it have been over..now only pray things wont be that bad while waiting for the result to be out..!!But im glad that im not the only 1 that having such feeling,they are few of them also have no idea bout the result..so,i guess i should stay strong..to go on with things that might happen..!!

These days knowing that sis and the bf is not going very well..as i know her mood is been going up and down..so unpredictable..dunno how long she still can take it..just wish that she can stay stong as well..and hopefully they will be okay again..no matter how she pissed me of,she still my beloved sis,really hope that everything will stand on her side to support her..as her sis,i will too..!!Not to be bad..if sad things continuely happen i think will only ask sis to let go better than gettin hurts..as he seem like dunno..and at the same time seem hurts for nothing..not to say what,but i believe that as long u're still a gal no matter how strong u stand..things that need from gals is very simple,they just need their bf to by with them when they need..give support when they're sad..and most important always remember promise is a promise..if ever cant make it dun make such promise..!!

Well,anyhow still depends on the guy..just wish them all the best..

=)

Ohh..today im kinda suprise saw chris at the cheras selatan jusco..he said he stay nearby..haha=D,realize tat dis holiday get me shocked..suddenly get to met those coursemate..but also okay..ar,been awhile dint see them adi..!!Anyway,today watched that chinese movie..about a gal very good in gambling..is very funny..not bad..then back to dear's place he cook dinner..for us..really sorry to make him worry,i know everything he did just want me to be happie..baby,im okay ya..i have u to support me..i know everythin will be okay..i promise next time if i have anythin then will tell u k..no hiding adi..!!=)

To all my utarian friends..how r u ppl..hows hol so far..??Not long more every1 will start to busy with studies again..time just flies..eventhough knowing u guys not long but got lots of nice memory..may ur all the best in the up comin studies n future..take k ya..hugz=D

这晚的心情

到底是怎么了
平常的我不是这样
有说，有笑的
没完没了

但
刚刚的我
对着他，静静的
是因为对着电脑的问题县的变暴躁了
还是今天的心情以不太好

话未说完
缺盖上了电话
知道他生气了
真不想变成这样

咳。。。。。
闷闷的，睡不着
又回到电脑的面前
写着这篇文章
心情显得复杂

真得很抱歉
对你发了脾气
但，
却无动于衷
没有回你信息

矛盾着，该会你什么
你说不需要道歉
不需要无畏的解释
那，我可以怎样

想着想着
自己不知何时要去金宝
会比之前见的更少
我们的感情，能仍然一样吗？
有点担心，害怕

每次对你都会有说不完的话
但就是不要看见你担心的样子
让我觉得心疼
但愿明天会更好
一切如常

不管怎样
只想告诉你
我爱你
认识你让我觉得很幸福
谢谢让我遇到你

~tagged by vicki~

*haha,vicki..1st time u tag me too...=D

8 things i'm passionate about:
~family~friends~my own stuff~bf~somethin that i think is interesting~food~i think tat's all..=)

8 things i say or do too often:
~sms~online~take a cup of coffee~hang on the phone

8 things i've read recently:
Wau..seldom do readin o..let's see~is readin ppl's blog counted..haha=D~newspaper

8 songs i could listen over and over again(no particular orders)
~i have quite alot..hard 2 name out..=P

8 things i learned last year
~wat's actually important to me~promise is alwiz a promise~must get to live happie no matter how~

haiz

another month i been together wid him..thou 7 months is not a long time..but i think is consider long for me compare to previous relationship..my baby..happie anni yah..mayb is abit stupid to count month by month..i hope that i n him can count year by year..everythings keep going well..no matter how..haiz,im so worry i cant get to go for my degree..just now dad came n ask me..i dunno how 2 answer just told him tat i duno..n beside dunno i really dunno wat can i say..!!arg..just hate it to be like tat..anyone can tell me wat to do..feel myself so useless..everythin cant do well..n alwiz need them to worry me..hmmm...!!2molo havin my drivin test..also dunno can pass anot..feel nervous n scare..aiyer....

BORIN..

These holiday been stayin at home..sitting in front of the comp watchin drama...other than that nothin much to do..i bet others utarian are busy wid their preparation to kampar for the up coming open day..i also wanna know how am i gonna be..thinking bout it..feel so headed..haiz..!!Wat to do..all the while result not tat good..so end up coz me like tat..hanging in the middle..dunno how..anyway,just pray that everythin will be okay..that's wat i can tell myself..!!anyhow..i hope my love as well..wish him all the best in everythin..pray for him..miss him so much..think that 2molo gonna see him..just make me so happie..even we just been few days dint see each other but it seem..a long time for us..!!feel so bad eveytime when he needs me cant be by his side..to support him..!therefore everytime v meet just hope to spend more time wid him..get to help him 2 release his stress..my love 1..just wan u 2 know,no matter how will alwiz support u..n be with u..k..love u..muakz

another simple weekend

basically my weekend dint not have much thing happen..sat after drivin lesson then meet up wid dear..then been to his place..n help him to clean up his cupboard..hold it so long finally get 2 see a tiddy cupboard..hehe=D,then nothin much o..watch some drama..then in the everning he send me back to pj..then accompany dear to dm,he need to pass back the key to loon while im waiting for sis to pick me up for dinner..After that sis pick me from jaya..we went uptown to meet up her bf..then went kepong there to eat prawn mee..the compliment for the prawn mee not bad..then after dinner went to subang..sis previous workin place there..there's a restaurant above..sis say the cheese cake is cool..so,we been there to try..know wat the cheese is pretty cool..the cheese will melt went the moment u put inside ur mouth..awh,dunno how to discribe my feeling...keke=P..!!on sun,after taken lunch wid parents at subang..the fried laksa..then they send me n sis back home n they went out..!me n sis were like stonnin at home dunno where to go..then finally we decided to go cheong k..at subang neway..at 1st thought of not takin dinner wid parents they all..then will have dinner after cheong k bout 7..but unfortunely..mum called sis around 4 n told us bout 6 go pick grandma n cousin for dinner..haiz,potong steam man..hmmm..argg...not fun adi o..sis was so piss..but yet also cant do anythin..!!at the eatin place..saw my high skul fren n his bro..his younger bro was my junior...seem so long dint see them adi..so lucky get 2 meet them there...at night was chattin wid diana..i been a year dint see her adi..but know she is great..happie to hear that..kinda miss he though..but the others..is like hmmm..really dun have the heart to meet up wid..mayb durin form 5..we adi not that close..so even now been long dint meet up..to me is nothin..dun really wanna care..now i know..i have my love 1 wid me..a great sis..n her bf..then frens around..nothin is important then tat..anway..that's my weekend...hehe=)

a great labout day..hehe

Today is Labour day..every1 included sis n dad do not need to work as well..same goes to dear..he do not have class..too..!!Well..as usual weekend wake up bout 10 somethin..recieved dears' morning msg..hehe=),after tat sis asked me wanna out coz she meetin up wid the bf..so am i..therefore we went break1st wid parents then they drop us at paramount lrt station..!!I ask dear to pick me up from asia jaya n sis bf picking her from kelana jaya..so v both seperated..the most funny thing is we plan to go 1u at 1st..then sis too..after tat dear say wanna go time square n sis told me they goin there too..haha=D,not bad uh..keke...anyway,me n dear thought of go time square to catch a movie..but due to labour day..almost all movie were full...swt man-.-"..then,since like tat we go for lunch n walked around..about 4 somethin..we plan to go somewhere else..n decided to go pyramid..since i dint been there wid him b4..!!so..after we reached there,we went n check out for the movie..n finally got we got it for the movie~ironman..at 7pm..!!The movie was so great..n cool..those who haven watch..remember to watch..ya..hehe=)..Then,after da movie he send me to taman bahagia to meet up wid sis n wait for uncle to pick us up..Althought me n dear just window shoppin n catch a movie..but is a great day for me..get to spend time wid him..love u so much,baby..muakz..