piss but yet forgive,due to...her

Every time when I look at sis..i feel sad n pitty for her..had a bf but cant be a prove..intro as a fren cant be accept..aihz,then da most stupid thing is when her bf meke her angry n yet she’s da 1 tat get back to him..wth..how can it b like that..tat’s ur gf..cant u make her happie..jz like yesterday..is just all of sudden I feel curious n ask sis such ques.then,she cant answer me..so I asked da bf..excuse me lah..just a normal ques only..no need take it so serious wan rite..n dun alwiz think that ppl who younger than u..will have childish thinking..just wana tell u NO,not everyone da same..for u will think that askin such ques must b someone who is mature n if a 18 yrs old gal ask..u cant believe it izit..??sometimes I really dun like u..n also make me hate u..so wana ask u go hell..but when I ask u go hell..at da same time I need 2 think bout my sis..she love u so much..i cant do anything that hurts her..every time oso try 2 cool down myself..therefor, tat’s y I seldom wana talk 2 u..coz every time when start chattin wid..sure gt something piss me off..just dun wana got such thing happen..so,will try not 2 get involve in ur convercation..when da time I out wid ur..!!i guess im doin da rite thing though..hehe..knowing sis care for u..so much will not make her life hard..perhaps,hope u really appreciate her..i really dun hope 2 see sis throwin all da letter on ur face..tat she keep so long..if da day..i oso cant imagine wat will happen to u...just b smart n use ur brain more often..n im sure after knowing sis so long..u know wat she wan..n things that she wan..is very easy..therefore,if u really dun whole it tight..bad 2 say but 1 day u will loose her..n as u know there r lots of guys come after her..so,gambatte loh..tat’s all…

frenz..

Today,chiaching really piss me off..what wrong wid her..not like the way I reply her message impolite..is sound like meetin us is been force..if really like that..no point meetin up already..oh gosh..!!!honestly,i really don't know what’s friends for??im so confuse..i always think that friends is always the one that help us a lot..but yet seem like sometimes friends were also the one that hurt us a lot..!!just like in form 5..the gang..sometimes I will think..why should I care so much for them..since they dun even remember me n care for me..but I know thing cant control sometimes..i told myself shouldn't care so much adi..but yet is seem like everything out of control..aihz..why like that wan..really dun like it..every time I view their blog..i knew they’re all enjoying their life so much..but also remind me that what they had say last time..and now they’re doing the same thing..anyhow,i should feel happie for them though..erm,there’s a lot of things had chnage..and couldn't turn back anymore..therefore,I think I should let it go..n dun hold it so tight..not only for the gang but also some of them..then,I might get myself better..rite..!!somehow past is past..should look at the future more..and that’s nore important..now,my life is so wonderful..I have my bestie~ale,my jimui~man,pohz n cc(althought Im still feel piss bout her)..then,jiayuan..my dearest~amy,my lpz~simee,and my honey~soh n chinyee..last but not least…my beloved sis..n my dear~sam..all of them always be there for me..when I need them..and at the same time I’ll also try my very best to be there for them whenever they need me..i think I enjoy my life too..havin them in my life..i think I don't have any regret in it..love them a lot a lot..muakz

erhmm...

Every time when I know im in a stress mode I will make a way to release stress..sometimes I will remain quite till I get to cool down myself,sometimes I will talk 2 sis..tell her everything..n after knowing sam..besiedes finding sis,I will also look for him..i think its started it when I start my 1st arts assignment,tat time I was really stress up..till almost get crazy..n was so piss..but after talking 2 him..i feel much better..therefore,almost everytime when im stress..happie,upsad..I will look for him to chat...n at the same time I also hope tat when he facin the same thing or have any problem he will come n find me..share wid me....but till yesterday,eventhough he told me he’s stress..lots of things 2 think bout..yet I realize I couldn’t help him..to release his stress…dint get 2 help him settle his problem..!!i know he actually dun wan me 2 worry so much but I dunno how 2 describe da feeling..is like..i only can use a word 2 describe which aihz..anyway,hopefully his frez get 2 help him..so he can feel better..n happie alwiz..=),guess wat..just now zhen wei told me tat he need 2 do operation..if possible will b on Monday…although know him not very long..but v do keep in touch alwiz..so,really wish tat everythin will b ok..loh..will pray hard for him..take k..

1st day of my hol...

Wau..finally final is over..get 2 have 2 weeks holidays..can use da time 2 rest n all..can stop studying for while..yesterday went sg wang for ‘cheong’ k..but due 2 dint told dad n mum..therefore I went there by myself..but I told them I meetin them at mv therefore dad drop me at mv n I take putra to lrt n from there take to kl centre then take monorial to imbi n walk 2 sg wang…i guess dis is da 1^st time I take public transport alone..without frez…sis..hehe,feel so proud of myself..i was scared tat I might get lost though..yet I get my way..althought im late for an hour..i reached there is adi 3pm..All of them were ok n understand me..im so happie..!!then,after tat,me n amy walked together n tiffany,shuli,jencui n tiffany’s fren..they walked together..due to v stay at different places..after walkin around,me n amy took lrt back..in da lrt,I was thinking should I drop by 14 o ask dad 2 pick me..from asia jaya..thinkin n thinkin,then I decided 2 drop by at 14..coz wanted 2 c sam..so,ask him out for while..!!between I msg sis..n after all..she oso drop by at 14 n sis get 2 meet sam..for da very 1^st time..im so glad..hehe..i think is still have a good impression though..anyway,jz thanks a lot sis..lov u lots..hugz..

oUr stOry..

Da time I worked at dm,is was beginin of feb..dint ever think so much..jz think tat need to learn all the things tat I need 2 know while get to earn money..around end of march n beginin of april,I start 2 take care another side of kiosk..n dis kiosk near da shop tat u workin..n due 2 dis..i know u n as long as ah loon.after knowing ur..ur’re such a nice person..da 1^st time I get ur number is b’coz help ur to buy food but u dunno wat 2 eat therefore get my number easy 2 contact..n tat time ppl around were talking bout u n Elaine..n dis get me start msg u..to cure my curiousity..haha=)…!!da 1^st u called which on da 12^th of april~da day before pc fair..n then v start smsing..later on u start telling me u like me..i was like unbelievable..how can it b..so,I dint really consider it..n take it as joking..but u dint stop telling me n yet u say u start lovin me..n da thing tat most surprised me which u told me face 2 face n I was abit nervous at da time n is like duno when onwards I start liking u adi..i really dint expect tat will actually happen..hehe,then after knowing u longer..understand u more adi..then,v will chat on da phone for long time n later on I realize talking 2 u on da phone is like part of it..listen 2 ur voice,things tat u tell me ..i seem use 2 it..then once without talkin it will feel a little weird on da day..on tat time I know myself fallin on u..more..last nite,i told u alot alot of things..i even told u about how i feel..wat am i thinkin..wat opinion i get from others..after telling u so many things..i feel nice n confortable..i guess,by now u knows how i feel n everythin..will b much better..??!!now,I even start telling u I lov u..dis morning u told me tat u adi take me as ur gf but yet just feelin something missin though...i feel so sweet after u tell me tat..erm,i think any how u still need me to tell u tat my answer..izit a yes o a no..its still important 4 u no matter how...mayb I should tell u,let u know tat either a day..anyway,I just wana say tat I do fall on u..i dunno wat will happen in da future..will it b like sis..1 day..i dunno..for me is now..i appreciate now..ya,hugz n muakz..

>TODAY<

Dis 2 weeks havin exams..n still have 2 more papers 2 go..then my final is over n i got 2 weeks hol..hehe..although is jz 2 weeks..but better than nothin rite..hehe=),guess wat..i think im gona retake my computer studies paper adi..2day look at it..seem like i know nothin..really omg loh..aihz..nvmlah..is over adi..cant do anythin besides try my best 4 da up comin..n jz start savin money haha,anyway..in the everning i a get a news which sam admited 2 hospital..wat da hell..so zaduo loh..i thought he's like recovering adi..wat's wrong wei..aiyo..i sort of feel like chattin wid him at nite..but i think da best thing for him now is rest,rest n rest loh..i think although is not good 2 hear tat he's admited 2 da hospital..but either is good 4 him..he get 2 rest more n da nurse there get 2 take k of him..n also doctor...!!hopefully he get 2 recover fast lah..will pray for it..n every1..health is important o..so,must alwiz take good k of urself..ya..

这一个家。。

从我懂事以来，家里给我的感觉是一个较严肃但又带点幽默的。。这份幽默是从一个看来严肃但事实上很爽快的人，他是我老爸。。家里因为有他才变得开心，热闹 起来。。但最近，因为妈咪她。。家里的气氛变得僵硬了。少了那种笑声。。真的满怀念那个时候。。看到姐和妈咪这样不仅让我想起高一的时候，那段时间是多么的难 熬。。那时候开始，我和妈咪的关系有了变化。。我们讲话和以前不一样了。。就算现在，我们讲话也没以前那种自然，那种感觉不知要怎样形容的感觉。。但那时候 因为有他们，我和她的关系才慢慢的变好。。现在同样的事情发生但却不是我而是姐。。她从来都不会这样。。这是第一次。如果正常的来说，她也许有错，可是在 这个家她所做的并不能说她错。。在我们家里要拥有自己的自由，自己想要做的事。。真的很难，很难。。也许姐从小到大都比较听话吧。。现在她这样，妈咪难免 接收不到。但也不需要这么夸张啊。。姐都大了，为何不让她选择呢。。？！老爸说妈咪的思想要不得。。古板，只想歪一边，不会放开来想。。也因为这样，我们 身为她的女儿真的觉得很累。。我和姐每次都觉得老爸很厉害，因为只有他容忍到妈咪的一切一切。。 也可能是他们已经老夫老妻了。。！！我真的不想看到姐这样。。而我却不能像他帮我那样帮她。。只能呆在一旁。以前的她不会以泪洗脸。。而是开心的。。就算有再多的不满都会算了，还是会欢笑的过。。原来当我们逐渐的长了，很多事情都会变。。不会再像以前那样的那么容忍她。还好有老爸在。。不然我想我们的日子不晓得会怎样呢。。也因为我们有他的支持，他的体谅。。我们才稍微变得没那么拘束。。真的真的很感谢他。老爸，有很多事情不知如何要向你表达，但愿你会感受到；身为你的女儿虽然没有享受荣华富贵但因为你的努力，我们还是过得很好。。感激你对我们所做的一切。。luv u lots..hugz..

我的生日。。

今天是我十八岁生日。。从昨天十二点到今天的十二点。。足足二十四个小时，我真的很期待他们会记得这么一天。。但，至到我生日过完了。。我仍然没有收到任 何一封信息或电话。。原来当你真的期待着但却又等不到的时候，感觉一点都不好受。。真的很失望，很失望，原来我们的关系只是一消而过！！昨天从十二点开始收到amy,sam,ale, jiayuan,tsushon,tiffany他们的短讯还有wish。。之后也有和sam谈电话，就如平常一样。。很搞笑的，还不错。。然后，今早收到qityee, aifen，kokjiunn的msg。。很意外的是没想到kokjiunn会记得我的生日。。这是开心的，同一时间他会不会也有wish chiaching呢？！到了学校不久便call tiffany还有amy问她们在那里。。过后就去sp corner找amy。。我们就在那儿温习acc和谈天。。amy送我一对耳环。。很可爱的。。之后在学校，收到他们的wishes.。。后就去考试了， 但愿可以通过咯。。=），考完之后到secret recipe meet sam。。他送了我一条链。。我蛮喜欢的。。!!过后，我们去mcd meet up steve和manman，他们买了个蛋糕给我很可惜我吃不下了可是还是很给面子的吃了一块。。然后便打算把那个蛋糕拿到dm去。。amy没和我们一起过去，只有sam但他也是要拿东西才过去的。。然后再他还没走之前我hugz他，真的很舒服，感觉很好。Then,我们把蛋糕分了给loon,bryan n his wife,david,jixiang,desmond,yao,Andrew,kak noor。。当我pass蛋糕给desmond时他也有hugz我。就没什么吧。。hehe， 我的生日就这样咯！！我想，也许我应该不要太在乎那些已经不这么重要的人。。对我的存在，我应该可以一样过得很好。。我有一班很好的朋友和姐妹，还有一个 这么疼我的人，应该要想一下他咯！最后，真的很谢谢你们为我庆祝。。真的很开心，还有谢谢wish我的朋友们。。然而也要祝一位和同一天生日的姐妹 ^chia ching..luv ya..hugz..

Here's some pictures to show...

me and manman
me and steve
da present n da cake is from manman n steve
dis cutie from steve
dis shirt from manman
sam n me...
sam,me n amy...=)
da cake..
haha..curious where's others present....??is part of my body...keke=)

aRgHH........

oh my god..wats wrong wid u lah..thanks for tellin us so many things..i know u wan us to have a better life in our future..but at da same time we wan u 2 know..we r big enough 2 think..we know wat we wan..n can different wats good n wats bad..can u jz chill ar...!!!everytime when im in a good mood..da next minute..will b spoil by u..ishh...really dun like it like tat..n my exam is round dis week..cant u wait..after tat only come n ask ur ques..n tellin ur grandmother story..i really will get insane soon..aihz..if keep on like tat..will it b ok..if i continue wid sam..i dun wan da same thing happen eventhough sis prob wont happen on me by now...but dunno when da prob will come 2 me..as i alwiz say..dun wana bother..when prob comes..can i really leave it a side n pretend dunno anythin..dun bother anythin,can i??im so loss..sis prob i dint get 2 help her to settle same goes to mine..tat day was chattin wid amy bout me n sam..she was tellin me..dun care so much bout parents n all..jz like sis n her too..jz do watever i wan..!but..wat am i thinkin..wat i wan..i oso dunno..now a day, im so often talki on da phone wid sam..is seem like use to it adi..amy told me i might get myself luv him more..but im affraid..affraid in wat,bout wat..im not so sure..either is jz myself thinkin too much..o im givin excuse tat not gettin myself deep in it..how??aiyo..dun wana think,dun wana care adi..watever lah...aihz,lastly..i wana say she really very very very very scary..she might get us off 1 day..

more pics for sis's convo

sis and me..
ts,sis n me..

..AihZ....

aiyo..exam is round da corner adi..im seem like study nothin..althought i did study acc,econ,ps..eng..aspeacially acc..i did lots in it...but still feelin scare..aihz..how??anythin is not a prob 2 me..but when come 2 examination..almost kill me..really hate it..y study must include exams..from primary to secondary to uni..all need exams...if v do not sit for those exams..v cant higher up our education level...y gt such thing wan...!!!gona get crazy 1 day by facing all those subjects...adi..sien,dis 2 weeks exam fast fast over lah..then can enjoy awhile b4 start 2nd sem..hehe..but only 2 weeks holiday...hmm...by da way,forget it lah...cant really force too..between..da most sad case is my bday is exam week..cant celebrate...wid chia ching which same bday wid me...she oso havin exam...aihz..have 2 wait till next year loh..hopefully next get 2 celebrate 2gether wid her...my ji mui n cononnya a sis..haha..!!jz droppin ere to crap..tats all..keke

sTudieS connected to fuTurE??

aihz..y do we need 2 sit for exams..and need to do all kind of assignments..cant v as a student jz attend classes..!!everyday go 4 class..do assignments n till da end of semester..final exams arrive..wat a sad man..sometimes, im thinkin tat..y do v need 2 study so much..dun u think is a waste of time..ppl tat studies much doesnt mean tat he o she will earn alots when they're workin..instead tat ppl that do not hv high education might earn better than those..!!is studies really helps in da future??for askin dis question mostly will answer if u dun work hard now da percentage to get a better leavin next time is lower than u work hard now n up comin get a better life style..therefore, craping so much ere..in the end will still need 2 bck on my studies n face my up comin exams..to show watever they say are rite....

convo pics

me, sis n boy boy..
(dis pic abit cacat...hehe)

my sis wid uncle n aunt...2gether wid cousins

my lovely family...

me and my sis...